Cody Jake Lee

Shining Star I see you.
Out front of my door each night.
As if you are trying to tell me.
That my cody is alright.
Are you his halo's light I see.
As I look to the sky each night.
If in deed you are my Son.
Just know that I'm Alright.
As long as I can see you.
When I look to the sky each night.
My Little Angel Cody.
And his halo's shining light.

Kirsty (Mother) October 11, 2009

Dark, hollow.
Black, cold.
Down this long and lonesome road.
Alone I am not.
There are many with me.
Cursed to wonder this road for all eternity.
No smiles to see.
No giggles to hear.
Empty arms is what we share.
This longing to hold a baby.
The hoping the trying, the waiting.
Can truly drive you mad.
This road has many twists and turns.
And falls along the way.
But with help from those around us.
We get and brush it off.
We wish we did not walk this road.
But only we know it's pain.
The anger, the rage and the emptiness.
We hope it will go away.
But as we walk along this road.
These feelings come and go.
Someday's oh so strong.
It feels like the loss happened yesterday.
Someday's we are able to walk this road.
And no screams are heard and no tears are shed.
These days are few and far between.
But we pray for more of these days.
Our hearts may heal, with tears and time.
But our loss will still remain.
Dark, hollow.
Black, cold.
Down this long and lonesome road.

Kirsty (Mother) October 11, 2009

I Miss My Baby Boy You See.
He's gone so far away.
To a place I cannot see.
Way beyond the stars.
There he's waiting for me.
Till my time on earth is through.
So as I hope to see him again.
My tears they sometimes flow.
I Miss My Baby Boy You See.
In heavens where he'll be.

Kirsty (Mother) October 11, 2009

Heavens Angels.
Is what they are.
Special as can be.
God gave them to their Mommy's.
For weeks, a month or just days.
Their Mommy's loved them Oh so much.
But with them they couldn't stay.
God needed them with him you see.
So Mommy's Angels flew away.
Though not with us in body.
Our Angels spirits stay.
Close to each Mommy.
To help them through the day.
KISSES AND HUGS!!!!!!
Sent from above.
To their Mommy's far below.
From all of Heavens Angels.
Not with us today.

Kirsty (Mother) October 11, 2009

Heavens Angels.
Is what they are.
Special as can be.
God gave them to their Mommy's.
For weeks, a month or just days.
Their Mommy's loved them Oh so much.
But with them they couldn't stay.
God needed them with him you see.
So Mommy's Angels flew away.
Though not with us in body.
Our Angels spirits stay.
Close to each Mommy.
To help them through the day.
KISSES AND HUGS!!!!!!
Sent from above.
To their Mommy's far below.
From all of Heavens Angels.
Not with us today.

Kirsty (Mother) October 11, 2009

My child has gone away.
And I do not understand.
Why Me?
Why my child?
Why now?
Why this way?
All my hopes and dreams are gone.
In a blink of and eye.
All that's left is and empty heart.
And the thousands of tears I've cried.
Many do not understand.
Why my heart is broke.
And I thank God that they don't.
No mother should have to bear the pain.
I do each and every day.
They say it will get better.
But I don't think it will.
My heart is in a million pieces.
And my soul is broken too.
This kind of hurt cannot be healed.
No matter how long I live.
It is the worst pain I've ever felt.
No mother should never have to say goodbye.
To a child she loved from the start.
So to those who say just move on.
Please if you think you can.
Your welcome to take my place.
Walk in my shoes if you can.
And I can bet in just a day.
My burden would be to heavy for you to bare.
And you would give it back quick as can be.
And hurry on your way.
But the next time that you see me.
I know you will turn away.
For you will remember with pain in your heart.
And tears in your eyes.
The day you took my place.
You will know how hard it is for me to live each day.
So please when you see me be kind in your words.
Because you have lived my nightmare but only for a day.
Accept my tears, and know my pain.
But look at me anyway.
Because my child has died you see.
And it will be a lifetime till I can hold him again.

Kirsty (Mother) October 11, 2009

My heart is broken.

Why can't you all just see.

It is not strength I show.

Just an empty hallow me.

You have changed.

Some might say.

The happy, laughing, smiling me.

Has quickly gone away.

My son has gone to heaven.

And with him a piece of me.

You don't quite understand.

And are not sure what to say.

I am not sure of anything.

As I get up each and everyday.

I truly love my son.

Please don't let him be forgotten.

So when you see my tears.

And you think you've hurt me in someway.

Please don't walk away.

Just sit with me and talk.

About my son who went away.

I know my heart is broken.

And this you cannot fix.

It helps to know he's remembered.

By those he touched that day.

My very special Angel.

who had to go away.

Kirsty (Mother) October 11, 2009

Our little ones whisper, "Forget me not", As their specialness wraps around our heart.Their short little lives Hold meaning and love. Their spirits have touched us-each and everyone.They have left their gifts For us to uncover, If we open our eyes, our hearts and our lives.The road to discovery is hilly and dark. Will we long harbor the pain or set our wings for the light?
Our lives have been changed, our paths filled with sorrow.Yet their memories embrace us and our love lasts forever.If we open our hearts, their gifts shall unfold, as we forget them not.


Why did you have to go away and leave your mommy so sad and blue?
I'm right here mommy with you always, I thought you already knew.

How come I can't see you or hold you close to me?
You do see me mommy, you just have to open your eyes and there I'll be.

I'm the sunrise in the morning and the sunset @ night.
I'm that star you see in the sky shinning o' so bright.

I'm that flower in your yard that bloomed the other day.
I'm the beautiful butterfly you stopped and watch play.

I'm that soft whisper you hear when no one's around.
I'm the warmth that heals your heart just when you begin to frown.

I'm the colorful rainbow you sometimes see right after a storm.
I'm always near you mommy, I just take many different forms.

I'm in each smile you make and kiss you give away.
I'm apart of you mommy, in every thought and word you say.

I see the tears you cry for me and hear you pray.
I wipe them away with my kisses and help you make it through the day.

We will forever be together this I know for sure.
God sent me to be with you in all that you will endure.

Mommy I wish you could see my magical set of wings.
Exquisite soft white feathers made from all of God's loving things.

I wrap them around you brining comfort and healing.
As i engulf you let go all the pain your heart is feeling.

We meet in your dreams holding hand in hand.
We walk down beaches dragging our feet in the sand.

You also have some friends up here that love you so.
They watch over you where ever you may go.

So when your feeling sad and blue and think I'm not right here.
Just look around at all the beautiful things and know I am near.

Kirsty (Mother) October 11, 2009

We thought of you with love today but that is nothing new

We thought about you yesterday

and days before that too

We think of you in silence we often speak your name

Now all we have are memories

and your picture in a frame

Your memory is our keepsake with which we'll never part

God has you in his keeping

we have you in our heart.

Kirsty (Mother) October 11, 2009

We thought of you with love today but that is nothing new

We thought about you yesterday

and days before that too

We think of you in silence we often speak your name

Now all we have are memories

and your picture in a frame

Your memory is our keepsake with which we'll never part

God has you in his keeping

we have you in our heart.

Kirsty (Mother) October 11, 2009